Today, I am feeling immensely frustrated. My coach, Claudina Hafenscher reminded me today that I’m still too in my head and not enough in my heart.
She’s right of course. I’m struggling and failing to do that. It’s not from lack of trying. I’ve been intentional about becoming a heart-centred person since 2015 where I spent nearly two years at the Sufi spiritual retreat.
Claudina keeps catching me saying, “I think …” instead of “I feel …”
In my unguarded moments I know that I feel because I cry a lot. Don’t laugh, or do, it’s of no consequence, the thing that gets the waterworks going are romantic comedies. “Love Actually”, “Love At First Sight” and “Leap Year” get my ugly cry going. Mama Mia, it’s all too much.
But, when I’m back in the world, I ‘think’ I’m in my head, mostly.
Two and a half years ago I met someone who is the epitome of heart-centredness. It was a wonderful experience, and she taught me a lot about matters of the heart. I
think feel that for our short journey together my heart opened up, and it felt fantastic.
I was astounded at her success as a healer and coach. She had no website, rarely posted on social media except for posting photos of her delicious cakes, and looked at me blankly when I mentioned marketing. She worked online mostly and coached three to five people a day. I asked her how she attracted her clients. She said that she welcomes everyone with an open heart.
At first, I believed it was all witchcraft and heresy. However, as I got to know her better and witnessed her success, I started to embrace the idea of an open heart.
There’s enough science to back the concept up too.
The heart generates an electrical field with an amplitude 60 times greater than the electrical field of the brain. The electromagnetic field (EMF) of the heart, measured externally by a superconducting quantum interference device (SQUID), is 1000 times stronger than the field produced by the brain. It is the largest electro-magnetic field in the body, extending to a currently measurable distance of more than five metres from the body. Source: Awakening the Child Heart: Handbook for the Global Parenting
The heart is an intelligent system. In the new field of neurocardiology, for example, scientists have discovered that the heart possesses its own intrinsic nervous system—a network of nerves so functionally sophisticated as to earn the description of a “heart brain.” Containing over 40,000 neurons, this “little brain” gives the heart the ability to independently sense, process information, make decisions, and even to demonstrate a type of learning and memory. Source: HeartMath
About 18 months ago my heart closed off and all the good work was undone. My head is beating my heart.
think feel that it might be an idea to reconsider my favourite quote from Carlos Castaneda: “Find a path with heart,” and find a path with “my heart”.
Let’s see how that plays out.